Break

I was so close to allow myself to just slam the door.  I really need a break from computers and tech.  I was actually going to just close this wordpress door in 2020 but I really need to do so much earlier. 

I am a huge fan of the Universe.  I love life.  I also love my country.  I never delved into the actual WHY I retired from the Army.

Trump.

I just couldn’t believe it.  Here I am in South Korea in 2017 and my Commander in Chief is literally “childishly” insulting the leader of North Korea.  Little Rocket Man?  Who says that?  I am 300mi away from someone conducting underground NUCLEAR tests that we are feeling down south.  Earthquakes that have never been felt that far south and here I am in my little slice of heaven shaking in a building (5^th floor) that I am expecting to collapse in any moment.

I’ll never talk about the crap I, or my comrades in arms, experienced in Afghanistan and Iraq, but this? 

I knew I couldn’t serve a selfish child.  I had to get out, and damn proud I did.  I could never serve a President who obviously did not respect me.  It’s funny how life is.  I genuinely would still be serving my country with honor if I had someone I even remotely respected. 

I am so glad I saw the writing on the wall when I did.  I’m not a talented psychic like some people are, but I can feel possible futures.  Here I am seeing it played out like some karmic cosmic Greek tragedy.

I was so embarrassed living in South Korea.  I draped my country’s shame around me like a blanket and was like, “Yup, we are truly a-holes now.”

And now?  It was so inevitable and extremely surprised it took this long to impeach an incredibly horrible human being.  Paying off porn stars to “not talk”?  WHAT?  The worst things coming out of a human being’s mouth and people dismiss it?  “That’s Trump” and continue on with life.  Our country.  My country?

I have been so humbled and honored that anyone would even read one word I write, and most are from around the world.  And.  I am so sorry.  I am apologizing for all Americans.  This is not what we signed up for when we were born in this country.  I am so embarrassed.

I need time to get past this.  Focus on training.  I really wish you all the best in 2020.  I have been waiting for this year for 50yrs (literally haha).  Hindsight and all that lol. 

Oh, and if you feel alone or lonely, just close your eyes, talk out loud to your guardian angels.  They are just waiting for you to ask for help.

Blessings

“Almost 50” Ben :D, Skate Jamm master and Marathon Runner 😉

aka BenJammin

PS: on behalf of my sisters and Sushi, Snoopy, Stewie, and Sofie, I wish you all safe holidays, journeys, and to the Bright Future ahead