I am a huge fan of Life.
I love living it. Almost seven
years ago I made the decision to begin living with purpose as opposed to just “living”/existing. I remember early on in 2013 when I discovered
Dr. Wayne Dyer something that he did daily that really struck a chord with
me. The very first thing he did was to
say Thank You three times as soon as his feet touched the floor as he was
getting out of bed. Starting the day off
with gratitude. That was something I
decided to add to the beginning of my laundry list of morning affirmations and
Thanksgiving comes once a year and is an amazing time to
connect with family and loved ones but Giving Thanks daily is something that
should not be overlooked. For me, it is
incredibly important to express my gratitude, my thanks for this amazing
abundant life I am living in. Sometimes
while walking around the house I pause and then it hits me. This wave of gratitude. It hitches my breath. It’s like an incredible dream that I am fully
immersed in. Yesterday morning, after my
run, I was walking around outside the house in cooldown and got to the
backyard. Looked towards the sunrise and
I lost my breath once again. I am not a
very good photographer, but I could not help but capture that moment of pure
I am so grateful for this community of WordPress in which
we can connect. Thank you for taking the
time to stop by and thank you so much for the messages in which you spread as well. I wish you all a very Happy
Thanksgiving! May you and yours be
filled with joy and harmony during this special time. Let’s continue to positively raise the
frequency of our world and Shine our Light.
The humor I mentioned much earlier…Well…It’s funny. A year ago, in May (2013 as this retreat was in 2014), I was on the early morning run, somewhere between 0430-0500, running down Flower Mound Rd in Lawton, OK when all of the sudden the Voice in my head said, “STOP.” I did. “Turn around.” I did. “Look up.” I did and saw the vastness of space, and the stars and…what the…? A star flashed brightly. Perplexed I started to turn around, but I looked again, FLASH <again!>. Incredible. I was astonished but felt good, safe. I was about to start running but had this thought. I have some kind of star map app on my phone. Held it up and gave the star that flashed a name. Alderamin. Never heard of it. Anyway, this all doesn’t sound all that funny but a couple weeks later, about the same time of the morning, different road, the Voice said, “STOP, look up…” I’m like, OK? I see stars! That’s it? When all of the sudden over my headphones I hear, “CAPTAIN, INCOMING MESSAGE!” (Mr. Worf from Star Trek, incoming text/email sound byte). And then what I felt/heard…Laughter. Like someone was playing a cosmic prank on me! Funny. (There is a lot of them but just hitting a couple of the biggies) A few months later at my friend/soul sister’s apartment just after the whole Beth Episode (maybe some other day) and was walking from her bathroom back to the living room (barefoot), thinking about Beth, a strange quirky smile and this indescribable FEELING and…SPLAT. Walked right onto Sushi or Snoopy’s dog poo. Heard the Laughter again. There IS this playful sense of humor in the Universe which has fun with us all the time and when you are tuned in, you can laugh too 😀
There is never goodbye.
Just till the next moment. My Moment
at Canyon Lake is moving into the next moment.
It was Quiet. It was Fun. I Am Here to Have Fun. BUT. I
am also here to Help. A kind word here
and there. Ernest advice. An ear to Listen. A Smile…Infinitely
That thing that beats in your chest. The thing that generates 5,000 times more electromagnetic energy than the brain. The first organ to manifest into existence. The Heart. Sends more commands to the brain than vice versa. We had it wrong. The heart of the matter IS the Heart. As humans, we are feeling creatures. The feelings generate in the heart, communicated to the brain which translates into…thought. Go figure. The only problem has been that EGOic part which thinks it’s in control. Thinks it knows what’s going on. Has no clue and is very Very VERY small. The part of the mind that makes a good run at Edging God Out. I can’t take credit for that term/phrase. Dr. Wayne Dyer. Back in the day there were times I “Knew” (in the back of my mind) that the Heart was so much more. I could feel in my chest growing and expanding with joy when I saw Carrie (ex-wife) walk down the aisle in Chautauqua, NY, and conversely the feeling in the same area after I found out she was with someone else and was leaving me. Withering, dying, crying. So. We are these Feeling Beings and are able to do these things with that miraculous Heart. It’s my belief that we are hard-wired to be Happy and Joyful, and the majority who do not express this do so out of choice. Why? Who knows. Free Will. The Experience. Goes back to the aforementioned “being human” previously written about. After The Shift it was like my Heart became a balloon. Buoyant. Uplifted. Most of all, Happy.
An Experience. To
what end? The Spiritual Being of Love
and Light manifested into physical form.
Why would such a Being do this?
Can you even fathom what it would be like to be pure Energy, pure
Love? All the other individualizations
of the One all experiencing the same.
Enter the physical realm. Be “Born”. Live. Experience. Grow/Expand.
Find yourSelf. Fall back into
Love. Well. I guess to put it mildly, I am more referring
to Me here, but not everyone wants to have the same experience. Some feel MORE by the suffering incurred upon
them, which makes them appreciate the Love/Light they are even more. And then there’s Me. I did suffer.
Mostly self-induced in retrospect.
It seemed like I was always one step away from my Awakening. Something would always “happen” though. Some tragedy or travesty, some “whatever”
that would send me back down the levels of consciousness. I finally got through to the physical vessel
which carries Me. We are Spirit of The
One Source and we will continue on in this Eternal Moment when the physical is
The “Smile” is something that the Voice suggested that I do
not talk about, I haven’t. and don’t plan on it. Writing about it is something different and
“I Am a Smile” is one of the many I Am phrases I say each
morning. As a matter of fact, one day I
noticed in the mirror, I was (in a resting facial expression) a smile waiting
to happen. I came to the realization
that it wasn’t just the physical Me smiling, it was my Soul smiling at the
Universe. And here is the thing the
Voice suggested not bringing up in the thousand conversations I have had in the
past year…I see the Universe smiling back at me. Where?
Everywhere. Clouds. Smudge marks.
Indecipherable lines on a table converging (as my cosmic eyes have
sharpened) into a pleasant countenance.
The list is endless. Not
important. Maybe the How or Why
are. The Reflection. The Universe (God) is like a mirror,
acknowledging, smiling back. It was a
little strange at first. I quickly became accustomed to it. Even now in this moment as I write, I look
over at my moldavite stone crystal and see a smile as plain as a sunny
It is a liberating feeling in knowing that Time does not
exist. Well. It does and it doesn’t. The human mind created it. A need to measure duration. Beginnings & Endings. So in that sense “Time” is real. We are creators in the exact likeness of
God. That being said, I know that Time
is not real. It’s a Feeling. The Feeling that all there is IS this Moment. An Eternal Moment without end and which never
began. Paradoxical, I know. Contradictory, sure. A Gut Feeling, you bet. Everything in the past is gone and yet kept
alive as much as we want in our own minds.
The future is a series of moments that we haven’t reached yet. Forever is Eternally Now. The Moment that never ends, the Moment that
never begins. The Moment that just
I just had no idea.
No clue. What is/was love? I never truly knew until I fell in Love with mySelf. It’s the Greatest Love in this physical
reality. “You’re OK.” “I kind of like you.” “You’re cool…I guess.” Those are the kind of things I would think or
feel. After the Shift, something dawned
on me. I Loved Me. It’s this love that gave me the strength to
let my girlfriend, Eiris, go. I do LOVE
her. I came to realize it was different
though. It wasn’t fair to her or myself
to keep the relationship going (her in Germany and me back stateside). It wasn’t in my mind at the time, almost a
year ago, but it began to take shape and form recently. “She” is out there. She is looking for me as well. Well.
I guess “looking” kind of doesn’t describe “it”. Waiting.
A Waiting. Waiting for that
moment when we are in alignment. When
that moment comes, we will be walking next to each other all of the sudden and
realize we have always been walking next to each other. When?
Good question. Whenever the
moment of alignment occurs. A day? Maybe a couple months. 10yrs.
Who knows with these things…
It is a direction our Sun is taking us through this Galaxy. We’ve made this trip before. Well. Not us personally. Personally, we see ourselves traveling around the Sun 365 days a year. The Sun is a Traveler as well and we are along for the ride. It actually has something to do with how I “woke up” as if in a deep sleep. And the Sun continues on a course it knows so well and yet unchartered waters for our 3D forms (Body/Mind). The Spirit aspect already KNOWS and continues its waiting for The Next Moment. What is “this” Eternity we are heading toward? I do not know anything specific whatsoever. A Feeling. We are heading into Something Wonderful. The closer we get, the stronger I feel. There has been the New Feeling as of late. Thanks to the Universe directing me back to Christian D. Larson, I rediscovered Poise and Power and finally read the book after owning it for almost a year. I seemed to be content with listening to the first four chapters on youtube. Finally. I was ready. This incredible strength that had been growing and growing, combined with the Peace that was re-experienced a year ago was developing and molding into this This Poise. I had a name for it now. Poise. But even now as I am giving consideration to this word, I know it is changing and Growing into More. Whatever the “more” is, I’m not sure there is an earthly/human word to describe It. Maybe that is why I am here. Maybe that was why the Voice told me to begin writing this story. I am heading into Eternity. Eternity is Now. Forever.
I got away.
Here. Not that there was any
pressure getting to me. There was
none. The Voice spoke, I Listened, and
here I am. A Get-Away weekend with
Nature. I have met a few cats, a couple
peacocks, a deer, some wildflowers, trees, birds (some high gliding birds of
prey as well), and of course the Lake. A
Get-Away, not a run away, more like “getting back to the basics”. Writing.
Reading new things (The Great Within,
Tao te Ching), reconnecting with old,
which are like NEW all over again (Your
Forces and How to Use Them, The
Pathway of Roses). It’s been
raining. Good Nature Nourishment. Was looking for a sunny sunrise over the lake
but there is always tomorrow. It’s fine. Everything is happening as it is
Happening. The Sun has not gone anywhere.
And there It IS.
Harmony. A True Balance of the
aspects of Physicality, Mentality, Spirituality. To continually achieve Harmony, you have to
what I call Tending Your Garden.
Daily. Gardens need nurturing
else they will not flourish. You give it
water, fertilizer, pull the weeds.
Pulling the weeds is vital unless you would like your garden
overtaken. Hence, FREE Will. A choice that the Majority choose not to keep
a prosperous garden. Oh they may take
care to keep a beautiful body, but the soul is in despair and ugly things
permeate the mind. Maybe great attention
is given to soulful prayers with determined faith and conviction but…they care
little for what they ingest into their body, their temple, and have let
Feed and nourish ALL THREE ASPECTS DAILY and you will find
Balance, Peace, and Harmony.